Yesterday was a difficult day for me as a mom. Some days our hardest job is remembering that God does not get it wrong-ever! In no circumstance is this a harder fight than circumstances involving our children. My son suffered a traumatic brain injury last July. His cognitive recovery has been a struggle. School is a struggle. Life is a struggle.
His neuropsychologist and case manager spoke with me about considering placing him on a life skills tract as opposed to a diploma/college track at school. He is in the ninth grade. The doctor said his cognitive scores place him within the category of a life skills track. These were very tough words to digest. I tried to put my best armor on and let the words bounce off of me, but the tears were tougher, and they won out.
The emotions are still raw from that tragic day. I think they always will be. A sight, a sound, a smell, a memory; they can all trigger a rush of emotion that no amount of effort can contain. My son is forever changed. I am forever changed. Our family is forever changed. This is not all ominous news. Change chiseled from crisis forges character, perseverance, deeper faith and so much more. The fruits born out of frustration are often some of the sweetest.
My son is not a victim, and I refuse to be either. Once we take on that role we put limitations on ourselves. We also maximize our sufficiency and minimize the soverignty of our Savior. I am sad that the circumstances are as they are. I hurt, I ache and at times I worry about the future. In all my fleshly responses, a voice keeps echoing in my head, BUT GOD. That is my life preserver friends! Test scores are indicators, but they are not dictators. Doctor’s opinions are assessments, but they are not absolutes. I much prefer the infallible provisions of My Provider to the fallible predictions of man.
I don’t know at this time what our decision about our sons’ school track will be. I am not ready to make that decision, nor am I ready to confine him to the limitations of a label. Labels we put on things are typically stickers. Over time, they are prone to fall off. I choose not to rely on labels, I prefer to rest in the hope of providential plans.
Yesterday I heard this quote from my friend, Julie Sparkman, of Restore Ministries. During the third session of her bible study series, Unhitching From the Crazy Train, she said, “Getting under the yoke with Jesus does not give you a different life; it gives you a different way of doing life.” Those words spoke so poignantly to my heart.
No matter what obstacles you or I are confronting today friends, our hope does not rest in the what of our struggle. It resides in the Who of our surrender. That is great news! This truth is a rest for our weary souls. Will you fight to reside here with me? Jesus holds our little lambs.
Amen!! Jesus holds our little lambs…I love those words: “Getting under the yoke with Jesus does not give you a different life; it gives you a different way of doing life.” Those words spoke to my heart as well…as I was reading them. Thank you for sharing…God continue blessing you and your family in Jesus Christ name! His got you all…in the palm of His loving and caring hands. Apge! O/
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“Jesus Holds Our Little Lambs.” We are ever so blessed and thankful!! Amen!! O/
I read the story about your son. I would like to encourage you with 1 COR 1:27-30. As a person who has almost died twice due to a chronic case of Crohns disease, I understand to a degree the hardships your facing, as well as the hardships that you son faces on a daily basis. I have also added you to the Votc ministries daily prayer list – And I want to encourage you and your son by saying something that Yeshua said to his disciples – “Dont be afraid (of the future) – only believe (trust God)”.
The doctors, the school officials, etc. can only see what is in the natural – yet we serve a God who knows the beginning to the end – Meditate Psalm 112:7. My doctors and surgeons all told me I was going to either die or end up with a permanent colostomy bag. And to this day, I have no symptoms or pain, nor am I taking ANY medication whatsoever. I eat and drink what I want when I want – the detrimental effects of Crohns disease that almost took my life are GONE completely. How? Here is the answer – God is my God. Reflect on my words, here.
And I know it can feel as if God is not there in the hardest of times, because your going through so much and you don’t “feel” any relief from all that is going on, but if you will continue to trust in God and not let yourself be moved by your physical senses (what you see, hear, feel, etc. – 2 COR 4:18) God will keep you at peace even in the seemingly worst of circumstances.
Consider Phil 4:8 as well. Remember, our joy from knowing God (personally and intimately) is our strength to endure all things – Yeshua said, “I have overcome the world”. And 1 John 4:17 says, “as HE is (in heaven), so are we (right now)”. I say to you that all things are yours.
In closing I just want to finish by saying – Trust him and remain at peace – Your son is in the hands of the Father. And what better place is their to be? I hope you were encouraged by my comment here as much as I was touched by your story. Gods power is his love – remain rooted in his love as he shows you what you need to do and where you need to be in life – To be led by the nature of God in you is the promise of the new covenant (Hebrews 8). Enjoy the journey (of life), because the end is an eternal weight of glory in Him for those who continue to trust in Him. I will continue in prayer for you and your family. Yeshua bless.
-Joe C.
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